STUDY Day 43—Changing Directions

You sit feeling a sense of heaviness, a restriction in your chest, your heart aching a bit with little comfort. You feel the struggle outside of yourself and you long for a moment…yet that moment can’t even be imagined. That moment would feel amazing only to be later stolen by regret, so you are back from that daydream, dropped right into the same space your started, imagining the world feels different than it does, stuck here… Exhalation, where breath is easy, flowing, natural, in the vibration of love, is so distant you struggle to remember the feeling.

underlying current

The Divisor

Let’s talk about the space between the divisor and the cell (in regards to the egg this space is the auric field). Like a single celled organism, each of your cells has it’s own insight, reality, understanding, ignition (heat) and record (in relationship to the cells existence as a human being) in connection to all things in all time (law of connectivity). When you are in Form Follows Thought you are effecting the cellular content, the cell’s information. Without this information you would be whole or okay all the time. In other words, the storage of information in the cell and consequential reflection upon the stored information in your thoughts, keep you from what you naturally are which is whole and okay in every moment. You are the only thing holding you from balance ever. Through learned behaviors, energetic encryptions, beliefs, attachment, judgement, and desire you perpetually keep yourself away from okay as part of your experience. Your process is what brought you here and only you can move from this place.

Black Holes

If you understand black holes this next part will make more sense. When you are feeling that deepening pain you are basically being pulled into “sinking” (vibrational gravity) towards the absence of light. Darkness, or the absence of light, is heavier and has more weight than light.

Because moving with gravity on a cellular level is natural, our first experience of moving from light to dark in a painful moment feels comforting because it takes no effort, gravity moves you. The further we move into darkness the more cellular pressure builds. Because your first experiences were comforting you may not recognize that the discomfort is from the increasing darkness, which over time becomes more and more uncomfortable until it is unbearable. If you fight for your life and break free from this gravitational hold things will change. If you use your free will to continually choose what keeps you here you will deconstruct your ability to maintain wellness.

You are a light being. Light content is very important to your wellness and existence. Existing with reduced light is like breathing at high altitudes where oxygen is thinner, everything is harder. When you are stuck in darkness you have succumbed to the singularity of darkness, the absence of light content. The environment through which vibration is transferred, light, is not there. Receiving vibrational support once here seems impossible. You are without connection.

When you are here the act of looking for the place of love brings in the thoughts of being unloved, a contradiction of your thought process. This occurs because the absence of love is darkness and to look towards the remembrance of love without the vibration of love to support the memory only produces a feeling of being without what you are searching for.

Creation Vibrations

Pure light, pure awareness, and open ended hope are part of the creation vibrations. Similar to a stable unchangeable chemical in science, hope can be added as an element or a compound. In it’s elemental form, open ended hope can change instantly the vibrational pull of darkness. In it’s compound form, hope for change, hope for happiness, etc the reaction from the reduced vibration of hope is less predictable.

Because you believe in cause and effect, because you no longer speak the language of symptoms, because you do not bring your awareness to your needs before the needs of others, you walk around lost thinking there is something in the painfulness that you were wanting to have, that there is a reason you drove yourself to this place, that there is a great lesson to overcome. There is no spiritual or scientific reason to stay here stuck in darkness, in pain. When you want out you can give yourself permission to leave. You can have light.

The Unknown

Fear of the unknown tends to keep you in this darkness, this pull of gravity, unable to see what you look like without the familiar. Again, when you look for the light side of a vibration and there is no light present all you see is the darkness. Remember the reason you took the path of darkness in a moment of pain was because of the familiar feel of gravitational pull into darkness, it occurs without effort. The amount of effort to break from darkness with traditional methods is extreme, time consuming, and will be the focus of much discussion.


There is a natural part in vibrational information where you exist as whole and holy. From this place of vibration you can see there is no damage. I want you to see how this is possible, by letting go of the destruction of self you can find this part of you, this wholeness that is hiding behind, underneath, all this information that is no longer the support you thought it was going to be. There is no reason to be less than free in every moment. There is no need to compromise your divinity and light to this experience you are having. Without this information there would be no struggle. I want you to try and go between this space and the information to the place of wellness.

Try one or all of these. You may feel afraid during the process. Remind yourself that you are in a safe place, remembering you are already existing as whole and holy.

Visualization-visualize coming in on the current of light content towards a single cell in your body. As you pass the place of I am and before you hit the divisor I want you to step off the light current. I want you to experience what it feels like to be all of who you are before you start the process of breaking light up for absorption. Notice the brightness of the light while trusting the consciousness is protected. The more you are free of fear the brighter the light will become. You are in a safe place, feel the peace of existence, the full force of light when all of vibration is present.

Contemplation– allow yourself to go back and observe your incarnation process. Feel what it was like coming in and out of the body, developing human senses while still connected to who and what you were before you fully incarnated and could be considered as a human in a body. What were you doing out of your body, how did it feel when you stepped out of the body and left the vibrations of being human, what was the light prior to incarnation like? Reach all the way back to what it felt like before wellness was compromised. Really gather this feeling to you. Now return to this moment with that experience and feel this moment from that place of wellness.

Returning Light– To stop this feeling of sinking focus on light, pull as much light into your system as possible. Imagine light is floating and flowing around you. Pull it in at your finger tips, the ends of your hair, the creases in your skin. Imagine it coming in wherever possible, bright, energized, with a sense of presence and heightened awareness. Follow its circulation throughout your body. Watch as it releases areas of darkness and pools in the empty space briefly to rebirth the cells, see them have this experience. When you are satisfied with the experience and you can feel all aspects of the body watch as the energy leaves the body and be aware that your body does not darken with the absence of this light. See how the newly re-birthed cells are holding their own light. Realize the forward motion into darkness is removed from all parts of your being.

Light Creates Heat– focus your intent on the cells of your body. You can pick one section of your body or you can do all cells at once. Become aware of the cells that are releasing heat, leaving the cell colder than its wellness temperature. Without asking why, feel the cells response to why, being careful to keep all conscious knowledge of why clear from your thoughts. Encourage the cells to return the unnecessary information to the outside of the body allowing the temperature of the cell to stabilize and increase to the level of wellness, raising your vibration and pulling you away from the darkness or absence of light in each cell.

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